Only The Trying (December 2010)

“For us there is only the trying. The rest is none of our business.”

T.S.Eliot somehow manages once more to send a zinger straight into my heart. This is where I have lived for so long – wrestling with God over why He would not grant success to our plans when, from what we can see, our plans are good and faithful and motivated by love. I am beginning to see and trying to accept that it’s not my job to establish the Kingdom. But it is my job to try.

Which is why I am getting on a plane tomorrow, with the goal in mind of bringing home a baby boy. He is due in a few days. His mother is waiting to meet us. All seems just as it should be.

“Instead you ought to say, ‘If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.’’ I have no idea what lies ahead of me when I land in Ft. Lauderdale. I don’t know what God has planned. All I know is that we have done our best to ensure this little boy will belong to us. We are trying. The rest is none of our business.

Thankfully the One whose business it is is also my Father and Savior and sustains me with His righteous right hand. I can walk into the dark because He is the One who bears me up.

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